For at least 7 years now, I’ve been searching for THE calling. What is my mission? My purpose? What is that amazing thing that will make me super-duper successful?
As you might have guessed, I still haven’t found it. Not that long ago, I decided it was time to give up on this idea and just focus on living a normal life like so many people do. But those ideas are still sitting in my head.
I think it’s because so many things in life revolve around that calling/mission/talent—call it what you want.
What am I good at? What do I actually like? Where is my inner child? Where is my talent? Because everyone has one, right? Why, despite continuous trial and error for years, have I still not found that thing that brings me joy?
I have a couple of answers to that.
Firstly, I was not looking hard enough. During this whole period, I went to therapy once, where after 5-6 sessions, I asked to be let go as I was tired of the process and thought I understood everything. I read plenty of educational material, but I didn’t act on it (that’s so me, feeling excited right up until I need to act on something).
Secondly, I understand that it all starts with me. Understanding myself, my values, what drives me, what brings that sparkle in me. And that goes back to point 1 – I was not trying hard enough to connect with that inner child. Yes, I was listening to my intuition more, I was challenging myself to try new things, but it was all at a very slow pace with minimal effort.
Thirdly, if I want things to evolve quickly for me, I need to put a lot of hours into understanding myself better. Learning, journaling, meditating, and doing everything I can to get a little closer to that (as I assume) better version of my life, where I am truly happy (another assumption, though).
I created this blog to share the knowledge I have. To create a focused, easy-to-understand, and applicable guide for those who want to become a better version of themselves. But like in any other area, it looks like I have to start with myself. Applying the knowledge I have to bring myself closer to that dream, which I hope will make me truly happy.
It seems like, from a perfect place to be, this blog will become quite messy and busy as my thoughts and my relationship with myself are at the moment.
So fasten your seat belts, this might be a long ride 🙂